I don't know

I don't know
why I feel this way
I know, I am immature
I know that very well
I want to get rid of this feeling
but sometimes I just can't
I am sorry God
I am not a good daughter
I feel I am useless
I am sorry if sometimes I can't be thankful for what I get
I have never meant like that
but..
I feel useless
I feel so dumb that I can't do anything
I feel like I don't have any talents
I feel like I never make someone happy
I don't know if there's someone who like me
who think that I am precious
is there somebody who thinks like that?
If someone loves me and needs me?
I fail
and it feels like this world will fall apart
What can I do?
I feel like I have never given something precious for my family, my parents
I wonder if they ever feel proud of me?
because I can't give anything to them
I want to help them but it seems like I fail
I have tried but what can I do?

Sometimes I just hate myself
I hate myself and I don't wanna be me
The one to blame is me
I am nothing
I am nothing
and I can't share my burden with others
it just driving me crazy
sometimes I just can't take it anymore
and I want to shout out loud
if people know my feeling
if they can understand
butI know they can't
that's why sometimes I feel alone